One situation in my daily life when I feel particularly self-conscious is when I arrive to a lecture late when the teacher has already begun speaking and the hall is listening quietly. I feel self-conscious because I believe I am being disruptive and drawing attention away from the lecture to myself, a girl who is fumbling around trying to get the last seat in the middle of a row. I feel like a temporary spectacle, the subject of a gaze, where the other students have either the option to watch the professor that they see everyday or a clumsy freshman looking nervously around for a seat in the crowd. I become an object of the gaze because I not only have a sense of myself but have a sense of others and their potential judgments of myself.
Production Notes: A student walks into a busy class late attempting to find a seat.
Camera focuses on a student timidly walking into a crowded lecture hall. The student is female, short, wearing school sweatshirt and jeans with hair in a bun. Camera zooms to a clock on the wall that indicates the student is ten minutes late. Students who are seated are listening to the professor with either focused or bored expressions.
As the late student finds a seat in the middle of a row, those students seated there notice her. They move their backpacks and move more into their seats. The late student nervously apologizes until she has reached her seat. Those seated next to her continue to take notes. This illustrates that even though the late student thinks she is a source of "the gaze" and spectacle to the class, in actuality no one really cares about her lateness.
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